We Own The Sky

If you've read my About page, or my previous post, you know I lost my dad suddenly in June, 2009, to suicide. I adored my dad, but I have had a hard time scrapping about him, even seven years later. This is one I did a while back. It is themed on his being a pilot. I don't even know where I found this gray airplane paper, but it was perfect for this layout.

I really started scrapping seriously when my cat died, who was 19 at the time. She died in 2011, but she had fallen sick with kidney problems only a couple months after my dad died. I bought her expensive medicine and in hindsight I kept her going too long. But she was my lifeline after I lost my dad. I know she went to kitty heaven for what she accomplished here on earth.

Happy {and Hurting...} All Over

Well, friends, you'll see some scrapbooking pictures, but I don't think I'll talk much about scrapbooking today. Today I need to write for catharsis.

A Selfie {From Ancient Times Before There Was a Name For Selfies}

Back when I bought my first digital camera, I took a few pictures of myself to try it out. Can I tell you how embarrassed I was at the idea of anyone finding out what I'd done? Nowadays you see people whipping out their selfie sticks (I'll admit, we have two in our house!) to get the perfect shot, but back when I was in college there was no such thing as a "selfie." {rather, there was no name for it and people didn't do it in public}

365 Days Later: Coming Home With Baby

Dear Zae,

You turned a year old and I can't believe it! Time has flown by in a haze of happiness. I can't believe it was over a year ago we were taking birthing classes and counting down the days of summer like they would never {yes, never, when you're talking about hauling around a bowling ball that sits on your bladder and sprouts feet for the express purpose of kicking your ribs} end.

Now I have to pause and take a breath as they fly past so fast I feel like I'm frantically trying to run around and catch them in my little butterfly net, even as another one flies by. I am still in disbelief that it was a whole year ago that, after patiently waiting for 11 days post-due-date, you were finally born into our world and lit up our lives after so much loss and heartache.

Waiting for you as others around us grew their own families...it's hard to explain those feelings unless you've been there. What was wrong with me? I knew I could be an awesome mom...I knew I could love a child the way all children should be loved. At times I questioned God's plan. How could there be mothers out there who throw their babies into trash bins, and I was childless? I'd shed so many tears waiting for you. On the day you made me a mama, my tears were of happiness.

The day we brought you home was an absolutely stunning September evening. The air was the perfect mix of warmth and golden sunshine. The trees were just starting to hint at the changing season. The birds were singing. Butterflies wafted on the wind...seventeen rainbows flashed across the sky. {that might possibly, maybe, just be how I remember it...} We couldn't have had a more beautiful day.

And apparently, you hated it.

My Buddy: My Creative Sketches August Challenge Scrapbook Layout

This layout was created for the August sketch challenge at My Creative Sketches. Here's the sketch:

I was inspired by this sketch because I have a hard time with titling and journaling my pages. I focus too much on pretty flowers and miss the most important aspects of scrapbooking: telling a story, recording memories, capturing the feeling of the moment behind the images. And since I'm still mourning the loss of "My Buddy" Woolly, I wanted to do something special for him.

Because I'm Happy {Clap Along If You Feel Like Happiness Is the Truth}

My little man got the biggest kick out of the pinwheel from Gramma Lisa. He was just laughing out loud with pure glee. Don't you wish you could put on baby-tinted glasses sometimes, and see the world as a kid again? Childhood is such a magical time. I am so thankful to my parents for providing me with such great memories. I hope I can do as well for this little punkin of mine.

Perfectly Imperfect

Today I wanted to share a scrapbook layout with a baby theme. I haven't done much with the baby theme. I tend to shy away from themed items because I tend to buy them before I really need them. But when I was pregnant, I knew I was going to do an all-out baby page.

And I really wanted to do something cheerful, since I've been pretty down since my Woolly love passed away a week ago, so working with these colors helped a little {a teeny tiny little little...I miss him so much}.